damn you damn you

I am in such a self destructive mood today i feel like killing mysel and everyone arround me, i think i am going through a serious change in life. Or have i just been through it? Feeling voilated, destroyed, used abused? I did it all to myself. No one else me. What do i want from life? where is it that want to be? life is no romance its a constant agony a pain, why the hell am i so bloody ungrateful? people would love to be in my position would give an arm and leg to boot me i am just hankering after things and i dont have and when i have them i will probably want something else. just the restless soul traveller. My posts were deleted they were little parts of my soul that were torn from me